Below, is a horrible rant, on all sorts of subjects.

If you don't want to ruin your delicate opinion of me, you might want to
just move on.

This is just a general, billion things on my mind, bitch session.

I don't have enough sleep, and God seems to have taken a dislike to me this
week.

Here, here's some spoiler space so you can just move along if you don't want
to read it.

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Just got killed and looted by Acid Sin. Acid Sin is one of my favorite Pk's
and a damn nice guy. But I am some pissed off that I AM SO FRIKKIN DUMB!!!
When an unarmed mage hybrid, raids town, and you hit him for ONE point of
damage with the power bar all the way to the right, you know you have no
chance. Just get the hell out of there. Just go. Just leave. Do I do that?
no, of course not. So now I'm dead and pissed off. No ones fault but my own,
but hey, it still makes me mad, thats my right.

Which brings up a rant.

Anyone who thinks that Hollow weapons are imbalenceing needs their head
examined. If a level 39 mage comes into town, and I pull out a hollow
weapon, I have about zero chance of winning. Period. Unless he is very dumb,
and is not in reedshark and matty yet. If he's still wearing a robe, my
hollow weapon has about a 25% chance of allowing me to win that battle.
Haven't seen a robe wearing level 39 or greater mage in months. (this is not
the same as people lower level, fighting primarily monsters, NOT raiding
towns. Wearing a robe is still a very smart thing to do. Raiding town in a
robe is not very smart. Especially at level 39) Heres the thing. Mages are
STILL ten levels more powerful than their melee counterpart. Even with
Hollow weapons in the game. I don't think that is o.k.. and it pisses me
off.

I found Dagger Mastery III gloves. Mizu gets first crack at them, but I
think he already has some. If he doesn't who wants them?

Mare and I are on vacation this week, and so far - IT SUCKS. And its
thursday. Too much real life stuff to deal with, DT has sucked this week,
with me dying to assholes far too often, and I lost my sweet Armor that made
me stand out. God I loved those red legs.

Adelphia cable just called. Mare and I are supposed to get DSL tomorrow
morning. "Um, sorry, we need to reschedule, we are out of cable modems, and
expect them in in TWO WEEKS." ARGGGGHHH!!!!

Turbine sucks. Lets just start with that right now. 300 people on DT today,
and the server is lagged like there is 3000 on it. What the hell? The open
corpse bug is still there, the Silifi of crimson stars is still broke, huge
folds of cloth amuli armor has no elemental protection, so everyone on DT
wears matty coat and reedshark, or shadow armor. They refuse to admit that
one person gets targeted over others. They refuse to admit that some days,
monsters just hit a hell of a lot harder than other days. They refuse to
admit that sometimes, the treasure generator turns out great stuff and then
an hour later, 50 olthoi in a row have comps and a sword worth 700p. They
refuse to fix the fact that weapons have no balence at all, and unarmed gets
two bonuses for damage and the hollow katar just does insane damage.

Mare and I are now hunting Olthoi, and since I burn so many mana stones, I'm
not even making any money. After last nights fest in the olthoi lair, I had
zero dollars, 2 healing kits, no healing potions, no stamina potions, and
was low on comps. Yes, I had a bag of loot to sell, but man, I run to mayoi
every 8 hours for more healing potions, kits and mana stones. Having zero
dollars vs olthoi blows. So, I tie to Teth today in hopes of alleviating
that. Well, the treasure system decids to go on one of those binges of no
good treasure for you. Mare and I kill 50 Olthoi soldiers and make 15 k
selling AT TETH!!! The night before we killed 30 and I made 50k selling in
Yanshi! Most soldiers we opened up had comps, or nothing at all. Soldier
after soldier after soldeir. We finally logged off in disgust. Came back an
hour later and made 49k in three buff sessions. That was not "just bad
luck".

As far as Silent doing what he wants, I am of two minds. Many of the
problems on HG could have been avoided if I had NOT asked for everyone's
opinion. And I have told that to Silent. Sometimes, just saying what the
rules are avoids conflict and the mailing list exploding with 100 opinions
on one small matter. On the other hand, there are times when it would be
nice if he threw big decisions out for general consensus and then said. Well
said, good debate, here's my decision. Being a leader is hard, I don't envy
him one bit on DT.

As far as the tree goes, its the same debate over and over. 50% of the
people on HG used to want an organized tree and wanted to see me higher than
"Baron Druss" When I could have been so much higher. Others think the patron
vassal relationship is sacred. It has to be one of two ways it can't be
both, sorry. There are always going to be people unhappy with one way or the
other.

I have a new job in two weeks. It pays much more a year, provides full
benefits including dental and optical and its working on the Public dole
instead of the private. No one's ever going to be looking over my shoulder
going "Is your work making us a profit?" I KNOW its a better job, but the
coward in me is scared to death. Scared of change, because I love my currect
job so much. But I've been there six years and its time for me to do
something else. I'm not putting in my best work there, and thats not fair to
me, or my boss. And my boss is a GREAT GUY and I feel like a schmuck for
leaving. He's having a rough month, and I know he thinks it sucks me
leaving. So I feel like a heal, I'm torn apart during my vacation, and yet,
I know what I am doing is right. But who needs all this crap during
vacation?

One of the best, nicest tennis players in the world lost in the opening
round of The US Open. Patrick Rafter is just a prince among men, and lost to
a no name guy who will then move on to do nothing, and lose in the next
round or two. Just a shame.

I'm not getting nearly enough sleep. I'm dumb. I can fix this myself. and
I'm not doing it. Went to bed at 2 am last night and the carpet guy called
us at 8:30, GROOAAAN.

Who's doing any writing? Not me. In KNOW I have what it takes to be a famous
writer (he, more famous I guess I should say.) I know that I can do so much
more, but am I doing anything? nope. Not a damn thing. I kick myself all the
time, and then the wishy washy coward comes out and says "Famous is bad. You
hate being even a little bit famous. What the hell are you thinking? Stephen
King, David letterman, Pam Dawber. they're famous. You know what they have?
STALKERS!!! I hate stalkers. Not really interested in waking up in the
middle of the night and having a stalker in my house. Not interested in
getting MORE email from people I don't know. Not interested in being more
popular. (sorry of that sounds conceited, I warned you not to read this.)
Not interested in any of that. And yet, I can't stop myself. I'm always
helping people in town, I'm always posting to web sites, and I'm always
trying to get my "name" out there for some sick reason I can;t stop. I;m not
very smart.

Anyone wanna set aside a week to just kill PKs? I don't mean like we have
been doing, but every time someone signs on, they know that this week is for
hunting PKs. Just run around and no one runs away, we all just sign on and
every single person in the source gets fellowed and we hunt PKs. No one runs
and we fight to the last man no matter what we are facing. Get like 9-18
sources all together, all week long when we have free time and just dish out
justice for a solid week. When we hear "Pk in Yanashi" no one asks "Should
we go?" we all just go "Thank you" and shurov there and kill them. Everyone.
The only break from killing pks would be to work off vitae. Set times to
gather, find places to raid, and just make evil as frustrated and pissed off
as we can. Make COD and ACVault just explode with talk of the Source.

Time for a beer.

See ya later

Jamie
Druss